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Missing Malaysia Airlines plane WAS hijacked, says official | Mail Online
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Malaysian plane’s communication system 'was disabled before it disappeared' — RT News
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It is very likely flight MH370 had its communications “deliberately disabled” before it went missing, but there has been no confirmation the plane was hijacked, Malaysian PM Najib Razak said at a press conference.
“There is a high degree of certainty” that the communications systems of flight MH370 were disabled by someone on board the plane, Razak said. Citing evidence from satellite images and radar tracking, Razak said the actions taken before the plane’s disappearance were "consistent with the deliberate action of someone on the plane."
Flight MH370 was on its way from Kuala Lumpur to Beijing last week when it vanished from radars. It was carrying 239 people. Responding to rumors that the Boeing 777 was hijackied, Razak said that this had not been confirmed.
"Despite media reports the plane was hijacked, I wish to be very clear, we are still investigating all possibilities as to what caused MH370 to deviate," Razak said.Read More (Source): http://rt.com/news/plane-malaysia-missing-communications-078/
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13/03/2014
9/11 Survivor shot dead in his own neighborhood
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Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2578923/Businessman-survived-9-11-late-work-World-Trade-Center-shot-dead-neighborhood.html#ixzz2vplF0ppP
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- Mohamed Hamwi was shot in the face and chest and killed around midnight Tuesday
- The 48-year-old systems analyst was walking from the commuter train to his Jamaica, Queens home when he was killed
- Money, his wallet and his cell phone were all found on his person
- The mother of Hamwi's husband insists it was a robbery gone wrong and not a hate crime
PUBLISHED: 06:07, 12 March 2014 | UPDATED: 16:24, 12 March 2014
A New York businessman who survived 9/11 was shot dead early Tuesday in his own Jamaica, Queens neighborhood.
Mohamed Hamwi, 48, was on his way home from the commuter train when he was shot in the face and chest.
While his money and belongings remained on his person, the mother of Hamwi's male partner still believes her son-in-law's death was a robbery gone wrong and not a hate crime.
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Tragic: New York City police are searching for clues to why systems analyst Mohamed Hamwi, who survived 9/11 when he was late for work at the World Trade Center, was murdered in his own neighborhood early Tuesday
Gruesome: Hamwi was found here around midnight Tuesday and rushed to an area hospital, where he died around 1am. He suffered gunshot wounds to the face and chest
According to the New York Daily News, the Syria native was born Muslim but did not practice because of the religion's outlawing of homosexuality.
Police referred to Hamwi's partner as his husband. The two lived together and his husband's mother Zona Tomlinson lived in their basement.
Tomlinson spoke to reporters and was the one to identify Hamwi's body, neither of which her son could bring himself to do.
'He didn't want to see him like that,' said Tomlinson, 59. 'He was afraid of how he'd look.'
Tomlinson told the Daily News she whispered in her beloved dead son-in-law's ear, 'Thanks for everything.'
She said Hamwi was late for work on September 11, 2001 at the World Trade Center and managed to miss the terrorist attacks.
Hamwi lived here with his husband and mother-in-law. His mother-in-law said she believes the crime was a robbery gone wrong, though Hamwi's money and belongings remained on his person
According to CBS2, Tomlinson supported his own mother, who lives in Syria, with finance sector job.
Hamwi was discovered shot around midnight. He was rushed to an area hospital but was pronounced dead around 1am.
'He was such a lovely son,' Tomlinson said. 'No mother wants to go through this.'
Meanwhile, area residents reacted as anyone might to such news: with fear.
'It makes me want to move,' said 67-year-old Carol Forbes.
Neighbor Eric Arrington told CBS2: 'It’s just very disturbing. You don’t want this to happen to anyone.'
'It’s just very disturbing,' neighbor Eric Arrington said. 'You don’t want this to happen to anyone.'
Hamwi still had his iPhone and $200 in cash with him when paramedics rushed him to the hospital. But Tomlinson stood firm that this was not personal.
'It had to be to rob him, but someone must have surprised (the robber) and run off,
'I don't know if maybe he fought back,' she said of her slain son.
Police were combing the area for clues by daybreak Tuesday.
They said they will also hunt down possible surveillance footage of the crime hopes it will sense some light on the loving husband and son's senseless death.
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Passenger jet passed through trajectory of N. Korean rocket, South Korea says
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From CNN:
Seoul, South Korea (CNN) -- A Chinese passenger jet with more than 200 people on board flew through the trajectory of a North Korean rocket that had been fired minutes earlier, the South Korean government said.
North Korea fired the rocket Tuesday at 4:17 p.m. without giving any navigational warning, Kim Min-Seok, a spokesman for the South Korean Defense Ministry, said Wednesday.
Seven minutes later, a China Southern Airlines plane carrying 220 passengers from Japan's Narita airport to Shenyang in China passed through the rocket's trajectory, he said.
"It was a very dangerous situation," Kim said during a news briefing. "North Korea's provocative actions violate the international navigation laws and pose a great threat to the safety of civilians."
South Korea has informed Chinese authorities about what happened, the Defense Ministry said.
A Chinese foreign ministry spokesman, Qin Gang, said Thursday that the plane flew through North Korean airspace "normally on that day without incident."
"When relevant countries conduct military training or exercises, they should abide by international custom to take measures that would ensure the safety of civil aircraft or ships passing through their airspace or territorial water," Qin said.
He said that China attaches a great deal of importance to the safety of its civil aircraft and would "seek verification from relevant parties and express necessary concern from our side."
Officials from China Southern Airlines didn't respond to calls seeking comment Thursday.
The rocket in question was one of seven fired Tuesday by North Korea into the sea off its east coast, according to South Korean authorities.
Given the speeds the plane and rocket were traveling at, the seven-minute gap means there was still "quite a big distance" between them, said Greg Waldron, Asia managing editor at Flightglobal, an aviation and aerospace website.
"Although the chances of hitting the aircraft were extremely low, akin to hitting a bullet with a bullet, there is absolutely no need to endanger civilians, however remote the danger may be," he said.
North Korea defends launches
North Korea on Wednesday defended the series of short-range missile and rocket launches it has carried out in recent weeks.
"It is justifiable self-defense behavior for us to conduct these military exercises in order to preserve peace in the region and to protect the safety of our people and our country," the North's Korean People's Army said in a statement carried by state media.
The military's statement didn't make any mention of South Korea's comments about the Chinese plane, but it said its recent launches hadn't affected "international navigational order."
The North's launches have taken place as U.S. and South Korean troops conduct annual military exercises in the region. The large-scale drills anger North Korea, which says it views them as a rehearsal for an invasion.
The North has fired missiles or rockets into the sea on several occasions between February 21 and Tuesday, according to the South Korean government. Seoul says some of the ballistic missiles are Scud class with a long enough range to cover the entire Korean Peninsula.
North Korea on Wednesday acknowledged that it had conducted "rocket launch training" over that period.
Who's provoking whom?
South Korea has said the launches -- short-range and aimed in a northeasterly direction out to sea -- are intentional provocations.
The U.S. State Department said Monday that launches of the Scuds violate U.N. Security Council resolutions.
"We urge North Korea to refrain from provocative actions that aggravate tensions, and instead focus on fulfilling its international obligations and commitments," State Department spokeswoman Jen Psaki said.
Those comments appeared to have irritated North Korea's military.
"The U.S. and its supporters are calling our actions provocation, but they should not talk about provocation when they don't know what provocation is," the North's military statement said. "Provocation is when somebody has intent to hurt somebody else, but what we are doing is to protect ourselves, our country, our land, our people."
The U.S.-South Korean military exercises, on the other hand, are provocative, North Korea said: "It's a reckless American way of provocation and they're doing all this on somebody else's land."
It threatened the possibility of the launch of a more powerful rocket.
Pyongyang had previously called for the cancellation of the joint exercises, a request dismissed by Washington and Seoul.
Calmer than last year
The North's verbal attack Wednesday didn't reach the ominous levels of its saber rattling this time last year, which included threats of preemptive nuclear strikes against the United States and South Korea.
"Unannounced missile tests are not a good thing, but their political and military significance depends on context," Stephan Haggard, a visiting fellow at the Peterson Institute for International Economics, wrote in a blog post Tuesday.
North Korea conducted or threatened test launches during a similar period last year, soon after it had drawn international condemnation for launching a long-range rocket and carrying out its third nuclear test.
"This year, the political setting is less confrontational," wrote Haggard, who is also a professor at the School of International Relations and Pacific Studies at the University of California, San Diego.
Despite the current military drills, ties between North and South Korea have improved slightly in recent months. Over several days last month, the two countries held reunions of families separated for decades by the Korean War -- the first such meetings since 2010.
South Korea on Wednesday said it was proposing new talks between the two sides next week to discuss the possibility of further reunions. But North Korea rejected the proposal, the South Korean Unification Ministry said Thursday.
Compared with last year, North Korea is being "remarkably quiet," said Andrei Lankov, a professor of history at Kookmin University in Seoul.
"They had to do something because it would be politically impossible to do nothing during the joint exercises, especially after they made so much noise about it," Lankov said. "But they act with remarkable restraint."
CNN's Paula Hancocks reported from Seoul, and Jethro Mullen reported and wrote from Hong Kong. CNN's Steven Jiang and Anjali Tsui, and journalists Lina Yoon and Stella Kim contributed to this report.
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Malaysian plane disappearance linked to 9/11: Barrett
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Transponder signals mysteriously disappear. Jetliners veer off course, then vanish without a trace. Seemingly impossible cell phone calls add to the mystery.
It happened on 9/11.
Now it has happened again in Malaysia.
Now it has happened again in Malaysia.
Family members of the passengers on Malaysian Airlines MH370 report getting ring tones when they call their missing loved ones. Social networking sites show the missing passengers "on-line." The airline reports getting ring tones on the crew's cell phones.
According to the London Daily Mail, "a Malaysia Airlines official, Hugh Dunleavy has confirmed to families that his company had tried to call the cellphones of crew members and they too had also rang out. According to China.org.cn, 19 families of those missing have signed a joint statement confirming that their calls connected to their loved ones but that they rang out."
The implications are astonishing.
Again quoting the Daily Mail:
Again quoting the Daily Mail:
"Telecoms expert Alan Spencer told MailOnline that if the phones are really ringing, they can categorically not be under the sea. He added that the phones will only be ringing if they are ‘switched on, not in water, the battery is charged, and [they are] near a mobile cell site.’ This means that if the phones are genuinely ringing, the plane needs to have landed on land – not in the sea – and be in a location where there is cell service, rather than landing in the middle of a jungle, for example."
Perhaps this was not an ordinary plane crash.
Malaysian authorities report that ground control lost contact with Flight 370 about two hours after takeoff. As with the four planes on 9/11, the transponder was inexplicably turned off and the plane veered wildly off course, yet the crew sent no distress signal – a procedure that takes only a few seconds. Authorities report that Flight 370 flew hundreds of miles off-course, heading west instead of north, before disappearing.
The missing plane seemingly cannot have crashed in the water; if it had, cell phones would not be ringing out. It must have crashed – or landed – somewhere with cell phone service.
Some analysts believe the plane was stolen. According to them, it was an "inside job" hijacking, probably by remote control.
Radio journalist Michael Rivero wonders if money is the motive: "Is Malaysia Flight 370 in a chop shop? A 777 costs roughly $300 million. Given that scarcity drives up prices, the parts from a 777 would be worth at least $100 million in the aftermarket. There is a motive for the plane to vanish, leave no trace, and have flown so dramatically off course! If my theory is correct, the search of the Malacca straights will find nothing. I would start looking at abandoned/closed airfields in that region with large hangers."
In an exclusive interview with Truth Jihad Radio, one of America's leading physicists, Dr. David Griscom, asks whether MH370 may have been stolen by the same gang of international terrorists behind the 9/11 false flag operation.
"The new Airbuses out of France are now fly-by-wire, which scares me, because a number of those planes have disappeared in ways that I think they really didn't crash and disappear; they've been hijacked (by remote control) and somebody is putting them together for another false flag attack someplace. The Malaysian plane, a Boeing 777, is just the latest example (of an apparent remote-hijacking). Before that, there was the Airbus 744 from Brazil to Paris. It crashed under incredibly anomalous circumstances. And after a few days, they showed photos of 'various pieces of it' floating out in the water. Totally staged! One part of it was clearly something that the next wave that hit it would have sunk."
"The new Airbuses out of France are now fly-by-wire, which scares me, because a number of those planes have disappeared in ways that I think they really didn't crash and disappear; they've been hijacked (by remote control) and somebody is putting them together for another false flag attack someplace. The Malaysian plane, a Boeing 777, is just the latest example (of an apparent remote-hijacking). Before that, there was the Airbus 744 from Brazil to Paris. It crashed under incredibly anomalous circumstances. And after a few days, they showed photos of 'various pieces of it' floating out in the water. Totally staged! One part of it was clearly something that the next wave that hit it would have sunk."
Dr. Griscom points out that the anomalous cell phone calls from Malaysian Flight 370 are reminiscent of those from the allegedly hijacked airliners of September 11th, 2001. In both cases, "impossible" cell phone calls puzzled experts.
The FBI and the media initially reported 15 cell phone calls from hijacked airliners on 9/11. At least one of the recipients, Deena Burnett, was absolutely certain that her husband, a passenger on UA93, had called her from his cell phone, whose number came up on her caller ID. The problem: The Burnett call, and the other alleged cell phone calls, could not possibly have been placed from the airliners, which were flying at high altitudes, too fast and far beyond the range of 2001 cell phone technology.
In his article "Phone calls from the 9/11 planes: How they fooled America," Dr. David Ray Griffin explains that the 9/11 cell phone calls – starting with the notorious "calls" from Bush Administration cheerleader Barbara Olson to her husband, Bush's Solicitor General Ted Olson – must have been faked.
The FBI agrees with Dr. Griffin. After spending five years telling the American people about the "cell phone calls," the FBI radically revised its story in 2006, admitting that 13 of the 15 alleged 9/11 cell phone calls never happened. Amazingly, the FBI even admitted that Ted Olson never received the famous phone calls from his wife, who (Olson claimed) had supposedly called him from hijacked Flight 77.
Olson should have been immediately arrested for obstruction of justice.
The FBI has recognized other 9/11 cell call anomalies. For example, according to the FBI, one of the alleged calls from Flight 93 lasted for two hours and six minutes after the supposed crash; another lasted 65 minutes after the official crash time.
No wonder the FBI has always taken the official position that "Osama Bin Laden was never wanted in connection with 9/11, because there is no hard evidence Bin Laden had anything to do with 9/11." The FBI knows 9/11 was an inside job. They know – as Elias Davidsson's book Hijacking America's Mind on 9/11 explains – that none of the 19 Arabs blamed for 9/11 was even on board any of the allegedly hijacked planes.
Pentagon Comptroller Dov Zakheim, a Zionist extremist, managed to lose 2.3 trillion dollars from the Pentagon's accounts shortly before 9/11. Zakheim's company SPC invented a "flight termination system" designed to allow operators to seize control of aircraft by remote control and fly them from the ground. Several of the key people who developed Zakheim's "Flight Termination System" were on the 9/11 flights. Were they silenced? Or rewarded with money and a new identity in a National Security Witness Protection Program?
Zakheim's "Flight Termination System" appears to have been used on 9/11.
Was it also used on Malaysian Airlines Flight 370?
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08/03/2014
The value of UK money
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04/03/2014
Time for Divorce (?)
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Update (02/01/2014): We are not divorced, but we are officially separated, I no longer officially live with my wife, although we are staying with each-other most of the time.
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It's 3 Years since we met on the 5th,
The same time in marriage in a few months too...
But It's not much of a time to celebrate. Sadly we held off Valentines day for the 5th. But now we have not only no money for it, but no reason to carry on as we are.
Today, we agreed to get divorced.
It's not because we dislike each other.
It's not because of any differences.
It's not because of some misunderstandings.
It is some external family pressures we cannot settle,
It's also some sensitive circumstances and health issues that we cannot control or resolve.
We still love each other, madly, deeply, but these issues are unsolvable and too painful for us to bear any longer.
We are both sorry, both regretful, of this decision.
Our time to make think work has ended at a Junction of despair and broken dreams that we both share.
As of now we will reamin living together until I can find a place to live. But this requires an income that can cover at
least £600p/m in rent, utility bill and food costs, among other things like transport and the other monthly/daily
essentials.
At this time since February I am being employed on a low income by my father, who himself is looking for work, and will not
be able to sustain my job or give me a correlating pay rise unless we turn a profit soon.
Life in this house with my wife is difficult, to say the least.
The family is full of haunting issues from the past, negative vibes, and over demanding young ans stubborn and controlling
children, who naturally take advantage of their mother's kind heart and are too wrapped up in their own thoughts and
teenage lives to take on and help with their mother's nervous disorder and settling in with a step dad. All the kids are
angry and depressed. It sucks!
This is a house with 5 children of Yolanda's 7, and the two of us.
We live in this house with four bedrooms, very narrow hallways and inadequately sized rooms for storage and privacy.
Like Sardines. Like a pressure cooker some days.
One elder child has serious, diagnosed but untreated anger and psychological issues and has affected life in the house and
our relationship very badly. If it wasn't for the Welfare Cuts he would have the care he needs. But Yolanda has to care for
him, and it's a very hard, and terrifying job.
I wont' even go into the horrid and violent events that have occurred.
Please don't be angered though, it is Illness and he has been abandoned by David Cameron's Government, Social Services, and
ATOS.
I am being mentally crippled by this. Yet I share a special kind of love and embrace a most beautiful personal relationship
with Yolanda. She is the most loving woman I have ever known. She is an A* carer, often discarding her own feelings and
time for others, always aiming to please and heal people, and incredibly eager to solve issues as soon as possible, no
matter what has happened to her.
I have many conditions of my own, as doctors have told me, Aspergers is one of them, which often causes me to misinterpret
my surroundings, body language, and conversation, and I am often socially awkward, and a bad organiser, all of which
Yolanda married into, yet perceiveered in helping me with. And me myself who unwittingly never knew the depths of Yolanda's
Nervous disposition, and her children's unpredictable moods, rudeness, and general misbehaviour. Before I came along it
seems they were used to getting away with a lot of things until I arrived. Yolanda though I had lived with my Ex Girlfriend
and her kids, but it was not the case, although I spent a huge amount of time with them and the kids did love me. I was
able to be wacky and fun back then, but the Girlfriend then was a lying cheating and deceitful scumbag drug addict, and
after 7 years of effort and being used and "recycled", my feelings changed immediately after my last "disposal" by her. I
grew up and realised I could do better, and all of a sudden my cinderella appeared. Long gone was the proverbial ugly
sister from my personal affairs, and sadly also her children.
Yolanda was and still is an amazing Bright light of hope and beauty to me.
When we got married, we did it because the LDS Church Missionaries convinced us to do it as soon as we could, but we both
knew we weren't quite ready, and after marriage they stayed involved, too involved, and ruined the relationship that was
being developed with the children. There had been a problem with members in the past that destroyed a family relationship
with another member, a basic case of sticking their nosing and cutting them off. This broke the kids hearts, and the friend
was brainwashed into abandoning the relationship they all shared with him. This caused much anger and the childrens
withdrwal from the church, they were very hurt. Long story short, the church alienated the children from me with thier
insistence to involve me in convincing them to rejoin, and almost bi-daily home visits to enforce it. But they did not take
regard for the despondence and distancing caused within the family.
The Eldest son never attended our weddin, he always dissagreed with the idea, he thought I was not ready. One thing he has
been right about at least.
Suffice to say I got pissed and told them kindly to get lost and never went back to the chapel again!
During this time the eldest son discovered a crack in the churches history, with breadcrumbs that led to a HUGE case of
corruption and rewritings/burnings of original books early on. This hurt Yolanda alot, she had been an extremely active
member until the aforementioned event occured, almost 30 YEARS was her time with them. She discovered more and more about
the evil and manipulative ways perpetually hidden within, but we worked on it together. But sadly this also re-inforced
reasons for the children to misbehave.
My efforts have been monumental, looking after my wife's nervous condition, and Yolnda returning the favour when the kids
attack me. commanded at her ATOS interview not to work, with uncaring children that refuse to tidy after themselves or help
around the house on most days, leaving their mother to do all the work, me, mostly cowering in the bedroom, and
occasionally trying to comfort Yolanda, getting pissed off at the kids.
All I can say is that we tried, we ran away, chased eechother, misssed and kissed eachother, and healed eachother's issues
from our pasts, both having had abusive partners in the past so on.
Our relationship is still beautiful! But sadly is is marred, bogged down by circumstance, poverty, compact cohabitation,
our financial inability to enjoy life as we'd wsh to as a couple and family. Many things really.
But was and still is everything but our relationships that is ending our time in marriage.
The complications are too great.occasionally, and becoming silent at times and restrained, even avoiding any kind of joint
activity with anyone. I didn't want to explain my situaton to my friends, or ask for help, with the fac of it's
complications, too much to tell at once, fearful of judgement!
I statred drinking. I swore. Alot. I cursed, I yelled, I clammed up, I threw stuff, broke stuff, and Yolanda suffered for
it, for me. For us. She saved our relationship so many times. She wanted things to work.
But our love continues, and I am sure it always will!
Just please, if you value me as a friend, no "told you so"s or "I knew this would happen/wasnt right" remarks.
I simply lose respect for you.
Basically the kids have banded together and said enough is enough and asked for a divorce.
-----------------------------------------------
It's 3 Years since we met on the 5th,
The same time in marriage in a few months too...
But It's not much of a time to celebrate. Sadly we held off Valentines day for the 5th. But now we have not only no money for it, but no reason to carry on as we are.
Today, we agreed to get divorced.
It's not because we dislike each other.
It's not because of any differences.
It's not because of some misunderstandings.
It is some external family pressures we cannot settle,
It's also some sensitive circumstances and health issues that we cannot control or resolve.
We still love each other, madly, deeply, but these issues are unsolvable and too painful for us to bear any longer.
We are both sorry, both regretful, of this decision.
Our time to make think work has ended at a Junction of despair and broken dreams that we both share.
As of now we will reamin living together until I can find a place to live. But this requires an income that can cover at
least £600p/m in rent, utility bill and food costs, among other things like transport and the other monthly/daily
essentials.
At this time since February I am being employed on a low income by my father, who himself is looking for work, and will not
be able to sustain my job or give me a correlating pay rise unless we turn a profit soon.
Life in this house with my wife is difficult, to say the least.
The family is full of haunting issues from the past, negative vibes, and over demanding young ans stubborn and controlling
children, who naturally take advantage of their mother's kind heart and are too wrapped up in their own thoughts and
teenage lives to take on and help with their mother's nervous disorder and settling in with a step dad. All the kids are
angry and depressed. It sucks!
This is a house with 5 children of Yolanda's 7, and the two of us.
We live in this house with four bedrooms, very narrow hallways and inadequately sized rooms for storage and privacy.
Like Sardines. Like a pressure cooker some days.
One elder child has serious, diagnosed but untreated anger and psychological issues and has affected life in the house and
our relationship very badly. If it wasn't for the Welfare Cuts he would have the care he needs. But Yolanda has to care for
him, and it's a very hard, and terrifying job.
I wont' even go into the horrid and violent events that have occurred.
Please don't be angered though, it is Illness and he has been abandoned by David Cameron's Government, Social Services, and
ATOS.
I am being mentally crippled by this. Yet I share a special kind of love and embrace a most beautiful personal relationship
with Yolanda. She is the most loving woman I have ever known. She is an A* carer, often discarding her own feelings and
time for others, always aiming to please and heal people, and incredibly eager to solve issues as soon as possible, no
matter what has happened to her.
I have many conditions of my own, as doctors have told me, Aspergers is one of them, which often causes me to misinterpret
my surroundings, body language, and conversation, and I am often socially awkward, and a bad organiser, all of which
Yolanda married into, yet perceiveered in helping me with. And me myself who unwittingly never knew the depths of Yolanda's
Nervous disposition, and her children's unpredictable moods, rudeness, and general misbehaviour. Before I came along it
seems they were used to getting away with a lot of things until I arrived. Yolanda though I had lived with my Ex Girlfriend
and her kids, but it was not the case, although I spent a huge amount of time with them and the kids did love me. I was
able to be wacky and fun back then, but the Girlfriend then was a lying cheating and deceitful scumbag drug addict, and
after 7 years of effort and being used and "recycled", my feelings changed immediately after my last "disposal" by her. I
grew up and realised I could do better, and all of a sudden my cinderella appeared. Long gone was the proverbial ugly
sister from my personal affairs, and sadly also her children.
Yolanda was and still is an amazing Bright light of hope and beauty to me.
When we got married, we did it because the LDS Church Missionaries convinced us to do it as soon as we could, but we both
knew we weren't quite ready, and after marriage they stayed involved, too involved, and ruined the relationship that was
being developed with the children. There had been a problem with members in the past that destroyed a family relationship
with another member, a basic case of sticking their nosing and cutting them off. This broke the kids hearts, and the friend
was brainwashed into abandoning the relationship they all shared with him. This caused much anger and the childrens
withdrwal from the church, they were very hurt. Long story short, the church alienated the children from me with thier
insistence to involve me in convincing them to rejoin, and almost bi-daily home visits to enforce it. But they did not take
regard for the despondence and distancing caused within the family.
The Eldest son never attended our weddin, he always dissagreed with the idea, he thought I was not ready. One thing he has
been right about at least.
Suffice to say I got pissed and told them kindly to get lost and never went back to the chapel again!
During this time the eldest son discovered a crack in the churches history, with breadcrumbs that led to a HUGE case of
corruption and rewritings/burnings of original books early on. This hurt Yolanda alot, she had been an extremely active
member until the aforementioned event occured, almost 30 YEARS was her time with them. She discovered more and more about
the evil and manipulative ways perpetually hidden within, but we worked on it together. But sadly this also re-inforced
reasons for the children to misbehave.
My efforts have been monumental, looking after my wife's nervous condition, and Yolnda returning the favour when the kids
attack me. commanded at her ATOS interview not to work, with uncaring children that refuse to tidy after themselves or help
around the house on most days, leaving their mother to do all the work, me, mostly cowering in the bedroom, and
occasionally trying to comfort Yolanda, getting pissed off at the kids.
All I can say is that we tried, we ran away, chased eechother, misssed and kissed eachother, and healed eachother's issues
from our pasts, both having had abusive partners in the past so on.
Our relationship is still beautiful! But sadly is is marred, bogged down by circumstance, poverty, compact cohabitation,
our financial inability to enjoy life as we'd wsh to as a couple and family. Many things really.
But was and still is everything but our relationships that is ending our time in marriage.
The complications are too great.occasionally, and becoming silent at times and restrained, even avoiding any kind of joint
activity with anyone. I didn't want to explain my situaton to my friends, or ask for help, with the fac of it's
complications, too much to tell at once, fearful of judgement!
I statred drinking. I swore. Alot. I cursed, I yelled, I clammed up, I threw stuff, broke stuff, and Yolanda suffered for
it, for me. For us. She saved our relationship so many times. She wanted things to work.
But our love continues, and I am sure it always will!
Just please, if you value me as a friend, no "told you so"s or "I knew this would happen/wasnt right" remarks.
I simply lose respect for you.
Basically the kids have banded together and said enough is enough and asked for a divorce.
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